It was unfortunate and very unexpected. For those who are curious to know how he passed, I will not give out that information. If you already know, please keep that amongst yourselves. My family has gone through enough heightened emotions and stress. Depression was what I suffered with for a bit. But I did not let that overpower me for I have two beautiful children my husband left for me to raise.
Am I coping well? Yes. I've talked to a few young women like myself who has gone through the same situation in losing their significant other. It helps ease the pain sharing stories and knowing I'm definitely not the only one. Majority of supportive friends and family have told me to live out each day, keep myself occupied, and look towards the future. Of course, I will never forget about my husband. He will always be my reason for living. If he were to see me sad, I know he'd tell me "Stop. I'm fine. Don't worry about me and worry about yourself. Stay happy especially for me and the kids." I know my husband well enough that I can already hear him saying it.
I've been keeping myself occupied, thank goodness! I got to leave the island twice to Guam. A week full of personal shopping on January, then three days worth of home decor shopping! Can't forget about the kids! I sure bought a whole lot of toys for them. I did buy ourselves a new house. That was both exciting and stressful. Then, another vehicle. I made quite a few great investments. Most of which my husband has planned from the beginning. I'm living it out for him. I'm glad I get to.
The moving process is always stressful! I'm relieved we're almost done. Only thing left is to take everything out of their boxes and put them in their place. I can't wait to rest my head well after all has been settled with. I always tell myself that my beloved husband was the person who made all this possible... did I buy the house? No. My husband did. He still manages to make me happy regardless if he were here physically or spiritually. I will always love that man... I'm proud to call myself a military spouse.
I will be posting more in the future with all the time I have on my hands. Thank you for stopping by!
